Friday, October 16, 2009

Friday Follow-Up

It's Friday, y'all! I told you it'd come fast this week, and it sure did. So, here are some updates on past stories:

First, I want to thank you all again for the amazing support you gave me while I was going through my miscarriage. Last week was ROUGH, but this week has been all about keeping busy and moving on. I'm feeling good, although I do seem to have developed a bit of an angry edge. (On the inside, so don't worry that I'm going to cut you or anything.) I thought I recalled hearing something about anger being one of the 7 stages of grief, so I Wikipedia'd them, figuring anger must be the last one before the Being Over It stage. Turns out it's actually only step 3 in the process. Ouch.

But wait! I seem to be in hyperdrive, because I am simultaneously experiencing:

Anger: I'm swearing in my head a lot more than usual, especially when I see baby stuff. Fuck off, Pooh booties.

Reflection: Been thinking about the crazy ride we were on when we discovered that we were surprisingly expecting and then surprisingly not expecting anymore. Wondering whether we'll decide to try again or keep things as they are.

The Upward Turn: Experiencing a welcome lift in mood and productivity - for example, I cleaned for the whole morning while Nathan was at playgroup on Tuesday...typically something I'd do only to avoid embarrassment if company's coming over, or to avoid playing another game of Go Fish with Nathan.

Reconstruction and Working Through: I finally decided what I wanted and bought furniture for the living room, family room, and kitchen on Monday, and am currently investigating window treatments. Thinking about personal and "professional" (i.e. blog) goals. Noticing that my body feels back to normal. (Bye, bye, bigger boobs.)

Acceptance and Hope: I accept that this kind of thing happens. A lot. And I hope that it won't ever happen to me again. For closure, I morbidly peed on a stick yesterday, and I saw only the one lonely pink line, when last week there'd been two. I'm a visual kind of person, so this creepy maneuver helped me turn the page.

So there you have it: proof that women can multi-task anything, even grief.

In other news, Romeo accidentally injured Annabelle in school yesterday and he felt terrible. He seems like a pretty nice kid, actually. For a player. He kept apologizing (although it was an accident), and he told her that she looked pretty, despite the bloody lip.

And the Academy called this morning. Madeleine has been nominated Best Supporting Actress for her portrayal of Mom's Embarrassing Interview Fart in The Emotions Game. She says she's honored just to be nominated, but you know she wants to bring home that statue.


  1. hahahahaha so cute!

    you are one tough cookie, kid. looks like you're going to be just fine! hope you are feeling better.

    mmm cookies.

  2. Wow, you have been through so much, but it sounds like you have a good handle on everything...hope you are feeling better. Found you from MBC!

  3. Hey, Kelley. Very sorry about the sad news. :( However, I loved this post, and loved, "Fuck off, Pooh booties." the best. Thanks for writing this, and hope you are feeling better.
    -Jennifer B.

  4. Thanks, "pinky." It's nice to hear that you liked that part, especially because I was sweating a little over dropping my first f-bomb on the blog. But I kept it in there because it was how I was feeling, and I try to keep it real. "Darn you to heck, Pooh booties" just wouldn't have cut it.